Aftersun

sophie, i love you very much. never forget that. - dadi randomly remembered this movie existed and started tearing up just thinking about it so ofc i had to rewatch!! honestly, i feel like rewatching this movie kind of puts you in the shoes of sophie rewatching it as an adult. you see all the signs so much clearer, and you almost beat yourself up for not piecing it together earlier. i mean, the scene where he crosses the road without looking?? how on earth did i not catch that on my first watch wtf 😭 his idea of recording everything on the camcorder was definitely so that she would have something nice and substantial to remember him by, and the fact that we know he’s financially struggling but bought one just for this trip UGH. the rug and polaroid too :((( on their last night when sophie asks why they couldn’t stay there forever, he never actually answers her question. in hindsight, this scene is HEAVY. his silence might’ve been him realizing that in some ways, he kind of will be, since this would be sophie’s last memories of him. don’t get me started on the rave scene. i’m actually sick to my stomach. calum’s very last scene being him leaving into a room with the strobe lights… i am. not. in. the mood. “you know, i want you to know that you can talk to me about anything. as you get older, you know? whatever parties you go to, boys you meet, drugs you take.”“dad!”“no, i’m serious soph. i’ve done it all and you can too, i just want you to promise me you’ll talk to me about it, okay?”“okay, but i’m never gonna do any of that anyway.”“that’s okay, too. but if you do, remember, okay?”the fact that he said that even though he was already coming to terms with his decision :( i kind of interpreted this as him letting her know that he’d always be there with her, always be listening, even if he wasn’t physically there. i’ve said this before but if this movie was about a mom and her daughter i think i’d genuinely would’ve passed out from dehydration halfway thru cuz of how much i’d be bawling but… lowkey… on that note… i’d be down for one!!