Springsteen: Deliver Me from Nowhere

TW: suicide, depression, etc.
springsteen: deliver me from nowhere is a biopic with substance and a personal lesson to always form your own opinion. fair warning: this one's going to get personal.
this last year's not been too great for me. i've been dealing with depression and suicidal-ness, and please don't assume just because i'm 15 that i'm being dramatic. well, these last couple weeks i've been going to a psychologist. seeing jeremy allen white as bruce springsteen going to a therapist for the first time and just crying broke me. i was completely silent in the cinemas after it ended and i had to go and sit down for a few minutes.
this movie is basically my first exposure to bruce springsteen, apart from my dad sometimes playing his music but i never REALLY listened, and i have to say i'm now a fan. literally when i finish writing this review i'm going to go and listen to nebraska and dive deep into his discography.
and not unlike nebraska, i felt the film had a deep and very emotional atmosphere wrapped around its core, like you could keep tearing through the layers but would never get to the core unless it it you in itself, and i loved that about it. every time jeremy stared into space or looked out into the vast nothing i could really feel it, and like jeremy strong's jon landau said "sometimes the quiet gets real loud" or something along those lines.
speaking of which, 3 of my favourite actors of all time starred in this; jeremy allen white, jeremy strong and stephen graham, and they all give jaw-droppingly outstanding performances, but that's just the usual for these guys. the only way the movie could get better for me casting wise is if the late, great philip seymour hoffman was in this in some form.
as i said in the beginning, this was a lesson for me to never go against your heart and always from your own opinion, as i'd not heard generally great things about the film and so i went in with very low expectations. that could be part of the reason why i loved this so much, because it shattered said expectations, but i think it's also everything i've said so far and more.
now on to the stuff with bruce's father & everything that entails, i have a very close, loving and encouraging relationship with my dad, who shares a passionate love of film like me, so i just wanted to get that out of the way to avoid any misconceptions. but even considering that, every moment spent with bruce as a child with or without his dad and all the moments in the present hit me like a mad max style truck, spikes, battering ram & all. he just couldn't express himself, he couldn't be a good enough father, and it breaks mine and his hearts, and sadly that was passed along to bruce and his situation with faye, he just couldn't express himself, he just couldn't be a good enough partner.
overall this is most definitely my most personal, but in my opinion one of my best & clear speaking reviews i've wrote. ❤️✌️